Sunday, November 29, 2009

UKHUWWAH ---&----<3 Rabithah hati


Apa itu ukhuwah?

Seringkali kita melafazkannya, kepentingannya, pengorbanan yang diperlukan untuknya, akibat ketiadaannya.

Seringkali kita diperingatkan, apakah pernah kita rasa kehangatannya di hati?

Keikhlasan yang muncul dari cinta yang tulus murni kerana Allah dalam perjuangan ini.

Adakah ia Cuma sekadar bertanya khabar semata? Memberi mesej mengingatinya? Bergelak ketawa bersama-sama? Berjumpa, bersalaman, berpeluk tanda gembira?

Sememengnya itu termasuk di dalamnya, akan tetapi kehangatannya lebih dari itu.

Bila berjumpa, hati melonjak gembira.

Bersalaman erat, memeluknya seakan tidak mahu melepaskannya.

Ini adalah hati-hati dimana aku disatukan bersamanya di dalam jalan memperjuangkan agamaNya

Hati-hati dimana aku berjuang untuk mencintai hati-hati manusia yang lainnya agar terus bersamasama kami menyertai jalan ini

Hati-hati ini di satukan atas nama Sang Pencipta.

Hati- hati ini dalam satu perjuangan suci yang menjanjikan kasih dan redha Al-Wadud, Yang Maha Mencinta

Mana mungkin aku akan lepaskan walaupun satu dari hati-hati ini.

Aku tidak mahu ada hati-hati ini yang mula mengundur diri dari jalan yang dipenuhi cahaya keberkatan tanpa henti

Aku tak mahu

Walaupun Satu

Jika ada yang berlaku sedemikian rupa..

Apa yang aku lakukan..

Biarkan?

"aku pun banyak kerja, nak kena pujuk dia pula, bukannya dia tak faham kepentingan kerja kita ini?"

"aku tak tahu..alah..lambat laun dia akan ok tu.."

"aku penatlah nak pikir,oke kot. Dia takde pape tu.."

"aku dah bg msg, tapi dia tak balas pula,call pun tak angkat.."

"hari tu aku ada terjumpa dia, nampak oke je.."

Masa berlalu..ketangkasannya tak macam dulu.. kata-katanya tak sepetah dulu.. makin banyak dia mendiamkan diri..semangatnya seakan hilang..

Bila ditanya.."tension study," jawabnya..

Kerapkali itulah yang dijawabnya, disebabkan itu, aku tak mahu membebankannya.. tak banyak kerja yang ku berikan kepadanya…

Dengan harapan, studinya akan bertambah baik, dan dia akan kembali seperti dulu.

Akan tetapi, dia semakin hilang….

Aku bungkam…

Ada sesuatu yang disembunyikannya?

Tuk,tuk.assalamualaikum..

Pintu dibuka..waalaikumsalam…

Aku memeluknya erat.."anti ape khabar? Lame tak jumpa…rindunya dengan anti.."

Dia terdiam..aku tidak melepaskannya..

Akhirnya dia memelukku kembali..erat..

Kami duduk dikatilnya berborak…walaupun dia kelihatan tidak ceria …aku tak bercadang untuk balik.

Setelah beberapa lama, dia berkata "nak minum apa-apa?" dia mula berdiri

Aku menarik tangannya dan membuatnya terduduk semula. Aku menggenggam tangannya erat…menatap terus ke dalam mata nya…

"anti apa khabar"

"ah..baik2 je..tension sket..tu je..banyak kerja kene siapkan.."

"apa khabar dalaman anti?"

Dia terdiam seketika..

"oke..insyaAllah.."..dia memalingkan muka…

Aku memeluknya.

"eh, anti.."tersentak dia..

"Macammana ibadah..qiyam…hubungan anti dengan Allah?"

Aku mendengar nafasnya ditarik dalam.. tangannya mula mendakapku erat… badannya mula menggeletar..

tiada jawapan

Hanya esakan..

Aku membiarkannya menangis..

"Allah sentiasa menyayangi anti, mencintai anti, takkan pernah Dia melepaskan anti keseorangan…

Allah merindui anti, jalan ini merindui anti…anti amat berharga untuk ummah ini.."

Dakapannya bertambah erat..

"terima kasih..ana sayang anti..terima kasih sebab jumpa ana..terima kasih.."

Pelukan dilepaskan.. barulah ketika itu dia menceritakan apa masalahnya..

Bermesej2 di alam maya, sesungguhnya memang berbeza apabila mata bertemu mata. Mengungkap rasa yang datang dari hati terus turun ke hatinya..

Setelah beberapa jam di biliknya aku pulang.. di perjalanan aku melihat langit..langit gelap..

Tetiba bulan purnama perlahan-lahan keluar di sebalik awan.

Tersenyum aku

Ya.. ukhuwah itu.. indah.. mampu menarik hati-hati ini kembali bersatu atas dalamnya.. hanya ketika mana ada hati-hati yang peka, sensitif dan dalam cintanya terhadap hati-hati yang berada disekelilingnya…

Hati-hati yang basah…sarat dengan cinta Allah..hangat dengan mahabbah…melimpah dengan kasih yang melembabkan hati-hati disekelilingnya..

Kita perlukan hati-hati itu..

Kita perlukan ia dengan banyaknya..

Agar ia mampu mencairkan hati-hati manusia yang membeku suram tak bercahaya.

Friday, November 13, 2009

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

dang dang dang


uhu.. agak lewat la kan nak upload nih.. tapi tak pe rr.. maybe bleh recycle tuk ramadhan akan datang ..huhu..kalo hidup lagi la

Friday, August 7, 2009

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Assalamualaikum wbt..
ape kabar? genki? hisashiburi da ne~...

lamenye tak nulis.. kekadang ade je idea tapi time ade tu takde dpn comp..lagipun susah sket nak online skang ni. harap lab computer kat E3 engine ni jela~

hm..korang ape kabar? hows life? hectic ke? kite kat cnie adelah macam tak betul sket kpale..huhu..

this sem i take 20.5 credit hour = 9 subject = 2 irk subject + 3 co-cu + 6 core courses...

biotech engine lab
biochemical kinetics
thermodynamics
biochemistry 1
environmental engineering
cell and molecular biology
quranic and prophetic text (class conducted in ARABIC!!ngaha~)
sciences of Quran
family and parenting

hu.. too much.. i'm minoring in islamic revealed knowledge.. but alhamdulillah..no math this sem coz i will continue math 5 next sem.. rehat sat..tanpa math..even x bleh lari sebab ade thermo n kinetics

i hope i can balance theeeseee and gerak kerje dakwah..
please pray for me, my friends...

aa~~
lets pray for all of us.. cos i believe you're having hectic life too ne~?

someone ask me.. tak gile ke nak amek banyak2?
honestly rase cam "agakla~"

but you know.. once we have too many things to be done, we tend to treasure our time and use our free time wisely.. but when we have so many free time, we tend to let it be wasted just like that... ngadap laptop... guling2 atas katil..tido..boraaaak manjang..tuptap2 eh... its already 12?
too many 'perkara tak perlu dibuat2 perlu' that we've done..

less time we have we are practising ourselves to be more organized and more discipline.. right?

but for unorganized people like me i know it would be tough.. but it is TRAINING right?

and time2 bizi, kite senang tension and tertekan..
sedar tak sedar time ginilaaaaa hubungan dgn Allah kene LAGI2 kuat..
sape yang mampu bagi kite kekuatan and ketahanan?
sape yang mampu bagi kite ketenangan dalam kekalutan?
sape yang mampu meneguhkan diri kite waktu zaman2 kejatuhan?
sape yang mampu memahamkan kite mase tgh ke'blur'an?
sape yang mampu memudahkan urusan kite dalam kite kesusahan?

kalau bukan Allah...

nak cari bekalan untuk tempuh jalan sbg daie, sebagai student, anak, naqib lagi..kalo tak pancit takde tayar ganti..haus lapa, takde makanan..lagilah pedih..

watazawwadu fainna khaira zadid taqwa..
sebaik2 bekalan ialah takwa..

memang akan rase penat n letih sebab manusia ni memanglah lemah..Allah yang menguatkannye.. sebabtu r kene mintak kat Dia.

okey..

('_')..
smile...
(^~^)..
smile la~
(^_^)

he...
be positive! every problem that we have actually a precious chance to make ourselves better n to gain more experience!
(^-^)

huhu.. why am i feeling like motivating myself~ (^u^) inna ma'al 'usri YUSRA..

rabbi yassir wala tu'assir

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

I've learnt something new

just finished with forum presentation in front of bahasa melayu kerjaya class.
tajuk isu jenayah dan ragut-cara penyelesaiannya

when we got this topic, and considiring the panelist. we decide one of the panelist should be talking about law.

because no one of us was from law, 2 engine, 1 hs, 1 irk, we have to do lat talilat and oo som. and i lost
so i have to become a panelist that "expert in sivil and syariah law"

and after discussing, we manage to conclude that islam is the best way out from this crime issue

and i have to talk about sivil and syari'ah law.and also its implimentation...

....then i realize i have no much knowledge of law...

MY GOD!! how on earth i want to convey such a big issue??

i cudnt think properly for two days... before my mind translate this as a problem i want to see it as a chance! a very valuable one.

thank goodness akhawat esp from law really help me alot.fatin lend me her broadband, i chat with raihan mk and ask her tonne of questions..and she answered smoothly..sugoi~ rai-chan!! and i also asked munirah and sofi and my lecturer, ust kabuye. my lecturer replies even he was in uganda... i'm touched..

the night before the presentation nihlah help me to make may text. and i have to stay up to finished it..

the day came, i'm trembling.. before this i'm not this afraid to talk in front. but this topic is heavy for me..im thankful with the knowlegde i gained all my way in tarbiyyah that help me a lot.

this is not just for a forum presentation to get 15% marks for final exam for BMK.

i.m telling this to the audience(not many but..) with hope that all of us may see that Islam is a complete system that we must accept wholeheartedly.

that syariah is a must for us to uphold!

that islam is syumul n complete in every thing including its law, including hudud!

that we have big responsibility to do islah in ourselves n community!

that we have to return back to Allah n Prophet s.a.w and refer to quran and sunnah to get the answer for any problem in our life...

my voice do tremble to talk this big isuue that for me not just a presentation but a da'wa

alhamdulillah i manage to do it.. eventhough i'm taking longer time than given..it may not be the best presentation but d best i can do on that time..

its kinda weird to talk about akta, seksyen, kanun keseksaan.. but i feel more confident when i talk about islam and syari'ah..coz i'm talking for what i have firm belief..

yeah..of course i talk and convey, but the 1st person to do what is told is myself right..?
.....

onegai ya Allah.. help me..

this damn weak slave of yours..

if u dont help me,
held my hand when i fall,
remind me when i forgot,

there is no one else..

that always be beside me every second and every time

and understand me fully like You do..

Sunday, April 26, 2009

I Love My Father..



I t was when pakcik zairul gave me a ride going back home with dayah after having rehlah, I saw she was having conversation with her dad.. I don’t know..but, it reminds me of my father.

Yeah.. I missed him so much..

Everytime I saw my father’s friends, I will be missing him so much.

Even sometimes I still feel… babah really has passed away?

I t’ve already been more than 3 years since he left us. But the memories remain forever..

I still remember.. quite long time before,when I asked him, “babah, okey ke senarnye?caner result checkup?”he said” alah darah babah tak brape bersih..” I kept quiet..the first time I learnt about his disease, it was only me and my along.. I cried.. but he said” alah… insyallah takde pape… tgk tangan babah, still merah.. kalau org leukemia, kulit jadi kuning.. jangan risau babah sempatnye kawen kan korang due”he said that, smiling and laughing…..

…..

but, the day he went away, he was very pale..very2 pale…but smiling..

I still remember the day he called us all to gather in front of him..and telling us about his disease and...how fatal it seems.. the first thing he said

”awak semua tahu kan kenapa babah kahwin ngan mama?

babah harap awak semua jadi org yang berguna utk islam..

babah nak bina baitul muslim yg akan melahirkan anak2 yg memperjuangkan islam..”

for the first time I saw he cried in front of us.. so do us..

I still remember when I got into darul quran.. he was so happy..and every time I told him, babah, angah dah masuk juzu’ 3 and so on. He smiled brightly.. alhamdulillah.. and he patted my head. There was time when I got the scholarship to go to japan.. I asked him his opinion. He said he prefered me finishing the memorization.. and I told him I will try my best to finish even if I went into AAJ(ambang asuhan jepun). He just smile and said”kalau camtu takpelah..babah percayakan awak..” then after I decided to accept the offer and register in aaj.. I have so much uncertainaty of my decision. He smiled and asked me ”nape ngah?” a few day there, I called my mother and told her I wanna go back to DQ.. mama told babah. He was very excited and asked my aunt who was there to picked me next morning. My mother quite not agree with that abrupt decision coz we alredy has paid the registration fees and etc. but he said.” Dah budak tu nak sambung hafazan. Biarlah die balik DQ” he was so excited and even went over to fetch me even he was so weak on that time(my aunt was the one driving) and we went back to dq.

I still remembered, late in night, I saw mama was helping babah for wudhu’ even he was too weak to get up, he still won’t miss his tahajjud… his mouth continuously filled with zikr with tasbih in his hand…there was time when I watched nasyid at tv, he called me.. he said.. nasyid is a good method for da’wah.. and he said when we really understand the meaning of the nasyid we may cry..but the most important thing, the core thing in da’wah, is da’wah fardiah n tarbiyyah.. I remembered that very well..even on that time I was still a newbie in da’wah.but now I really understand the meaning.

It was only after his death, I learn deeply about what he has being doing all the time, eventhough before this I do know but I think I do not really understand.. only after his death, I understand what it means

to be a naqib,

to take care of usrah.

Whats the real meaning of da’wah n tarbiyyah.

WHY he was really into these things. I only “understand” after he passed away.

There was time when I opened a book about a programme for married couple.. after he’s gone.. I saw this passage

what is the aim of your marriage?

for building a family who are soleh wa musleh”

I don’t know how.. but I cried..

My along told me that babah had once told her about me.. he said he believe in me.. (suddenly I remembered what yondaime told naruto..huhh..)

Otosan ga anata no koto Shinjiru yo..

but, am I really worth for you to have faith in?

the moment he passed away, all of us except our mother were on our way to hukm. My hp rang,

“angah, babah awak dah tak de” mama was crying..

…………………………………..

My mind went blank.. I gave the hp to along..

“babah dah takde?”

Along cried, amus cried, amah cried, firas cried…

so did i..

The moment we saw his body covered in white cloth in icu room.. all of us cried..like we never cried before..

When he was still alive,

When we went for vocation for our family,

I couldn’t even imagine my life if any one of our family member passed away..

but,

Kullu nafsin zaiqatul maut..

Faiza jaa a ajalukum, la yasta’khirunassa’ah wa la yas taqdimun

That time, I realized how real those ayah.. how real that we will encounter death anytime.. how a person that might be with us this second, and the other second that person not in this world anymore.

How real..

But do I really make myself ready for that moment?

Life goes on.. people come, people go.. the one that stay is our amal that we have to bring when we go..

To meet our Creator.


Saturday, March 7, 2009

Kene taggggggg..

hum..bile kene tag kene jawab la ea? huhu.. x penah kene so taktau..

soalan die lebih kurang gini
Assignment 1
exercise 1.1

1. citekan serbe sedikit pasal org yg mengetag anda
2.cite 10 fakta ato hobi anda
3.tag org len

solution:
1. namenye.. munirah hanim. kawan sekolah rendah mase kat alamin bangi.clasmate darjah enam. baik ngan die, ngan dijah, raihan afifah, izzati,hanisah.sebab kitorang dok meje segrup. pastu kalo igt munirah, musti teringat satu kesah..yg tableh nak cite kat cnie..huhuuu..mase zamn kecik2 kt sume x mecet lagi...siap bagi watak2 selemun kat setiap member grup meje kite..huhu.. ana mercury ek?munirah jupiter.ke ana venus? haha....yg pastinye ana manusia, bukan pelayar kapal ato planet..huhu..munirah die nie dak baik, pemalu, diam gak rr.. tapi dah kenal bercrite byk gak..manis dan comel..huhu..jgnkembang ne~teringat dulu ana gile sgt ngan watak katun dbz, Trunks.. sampai ummul penah kate, yusra! die tu tak wujud!x real! oooppp..kembali ke soalan asal..cite pasal munirah. mase last day sekolah die bg dpt buku winnie. huhu ade lagi skang.. pas da bethn tak jumpe die, terjumpe mase konsis kat Bangi!! wa.. sayang nye kat anti!

2. sepuloh bende pasal diri..aduyai~nak kene cite ke mun??
1-seorg khalifah,berjantina pompuan,belajar di uia,anak 2nd dr 5.
2- anak yatim(ayah meninggal dunia ms umo 18)-sile jgn mengherdik saye
3-dak engineering biotech n biochem, 2nd year. walopon penah satu ketika dulu sy pernah berkate" kite TAKKAN amik engin!!tau tak math yg macm add math tu ade 4 tau(kat matrik) 5 kat uia!!eee..takmo r tgk math tu lagi" maka Allah menunjukkan kuasanye.. tu rr cakap lagi TAKKAN. perancangan Allah lg hebat. haha.. tu yg gi biotech tu..sebab minat bio n chem.tapi malngnye dalam bio pun maseh byk subjek2 yg memerlukan mathhhhhsss.
4-sgt suke melukis.sgt2 suke.. subjek yg paling diminati dlam engin ialah engineering drawing.
5-suke bace komik manga. dan suke wat komik walaupon selalu takde penamat..
6-pe lagi... ade lesen, tapi tak slalu drive..so tak maher
7-sgt suke ngan bende2 berkaitan graphic. suke photoshop, movie maker.
8-teringin jd juru animasi n wat katun sniri ngan lukisan sniri n bw msg yg islamik
9- agak tak teratur..tp still bleh cope walaupon ketidakteraturan menyebabkan stress bertahap 1000KPa.huhu..exxegeratenyerr
10-suke mengajar n nak jadi lecturer..sebab suke menerangkan sesuatu perkare lebih2 lg berkaitan sains.yg penting diri sniri kene phm dulu..

nak tau lebih..kontek ana..hehh..nak no tepon antii

3. ........emm.... serius taktau nak tag saper..jadi soalan ni ana dapat kosong kot..huhuu

hm...
hm...
hm...
saye dak bese jekk..

sile bagi markah ye mun!!heee~

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

fuh~ berabuk...

my drawing- a palestinian mujahid

nak 2 bulan gak x update..
banyak sungguh perkara yg berlaku...
yang palling membekas di dada... israel laknatullah serang ghaza.. eventho dorang berundur, dah nature dorang tu degil, rasenye x bertahan lame.. tup tap bebaru ni ade lagi air strike yang berlaku.. obama pulak wallahualam ape yang die mampu wat..

ada yang berharap presiden us kali ni bleh buat samting berkenaan isu palestin israel
tapi pd pendapat saya, yang pentingnya, apa yang muslim skang wat, patut wat dan boleh wat.
nak tunggu hero? tunggulah imam mahdi dtg..da nak kiamat latu..ngeri lak..

ape pon mari kita tgk, camne org palestin kat sana terutama pejuang hamas bleh bertahan dengan serangan yang GILA dr pihak ISRAEL LAKNATULLAH.

1) kekuatan iman (basic yang tersangat penting)- dari pentarbiyahan yang berterusan yg memakan masa bertahun2 ketikamana as-syahid syeikh Ahmad Yassin masih hidup pastinya melahirkan jiwa2 manusia yg bertaqwa...proses pembentukan rijal=tarbiyyah

2) kekuatan gerakan (jemaah) dari iman yang utuh, ibadah yg sohih, akhlak yg mulia, lahirlah insan2 yang berkualiti, berilmu, amanah, kesetiaan,komited dan berkemampuan dalam membentuk barisan qiyadah(kepimpinan) berketerampilan dan kekuatan anggota.

3)kekuatan ukhuwah -tanpa ini, apa2 gerakan pon tak dapat jd kuat, tak de ni, x lahir kesetiaan, ketaatan n thiqah,tak lahir mahabbah dan kesungguhan dalam melaksanakan sesuatu.

4)kekuatan ketenteraan- walaupun hamas punya ketenteraan tak macam israel, tapi latihan,training yang tegas, disiplin yg tinggi, jiwa2 juang yg inginkan syahid, kelicikan strategi dan yg penting keredhaan Allah, membuatkan mrk utuh tak undur.

5) kekuatan politik pentadbiran- hamas pegang kerajaan tp diboikot oleh dunia n kuasa2 besar. bukan mudah utk mereka bertahan sampai sekarang, tapi Allah bantu hamba2nya yg membantu agamaNya. Hamas masih kukuh bertahan hingga kini. nilai2 islam yg ada dalam diri mereka pastinya menambat hati rakyat. semoga masyarakat luar yg tidak pernah face 2 face ngan mereka akan melihat keterampilan n akhlak terpuji pada pemimpin2 Hamas.

dengan itu, mereka sememangnya layak dipilih Allah sebagai mujahid zaman kini yng berjuang hingga syahid dgn darah dan nyawa.

hmm...tgklak.. kita camne? hamas berterusan membentuk batu bata yang kukuh dgn proses pentarbiyahan yang berkesan dan berpanjangan.. membentuk kelompok manusia yg cintakan syahid, mendapat sokongan masyarakat dengan kerja kebajikan2 yg berterusan dan mendapat mandat sebagai kerajaan yg sah.(walaupun dinafikan kuasa2 yg buta tuli)..ikut maratib amal kan?
so... kerja kita masih banyak, jalan kita masih jaaaaaauhhhh... kita kuatkan usaha kita membentuk diri kita dan org lain sebagai RIJAL, seorang muslim, mu'min yang berkeperibadian seperti contoh tauladan kita, Rasulullah s.a.w, para sahabat n para pejuang kite di palestin sana.

sama2 kita
kuatkan lagi iltizam kita dengan program tarbiyah, usrah, qiyam, mengambil berat dengan mutabaah amal dan ibadah kita, menjaga tingkah laku kita agar selari dgn kehendak Islam.

kemaskan lagi gerak kerja kita dgn optimum supaya segala usaha kita membuahkan hasil yang memberansangkan

rapatkan lagi ukhuwah antara kita, supaya lahir mahabah kasih sayang yng mengikat tautan2 hati2 kita. spend masa utk ziarah, bertanya khabar, mengambil berat, membantu,menukar2 hadiah, bertemu supaya dapat memekarkan lagi jalinan persahabatan atas nama Islam.(ingatan utk diri ana gak), mendidik diri supaya alert, peka, dan empathy ngan keadaan shbt kita.

dan yang paling penting.. ikhlakan niat kita menuju mardhatillah.. sama2 kita buang rasa materialistik, dunia n keseronokan yg bersarag n berakarumbi dalam hati... dan melihat matlamat kita yg lebih jauh n abadi. tetapkan priority kita untk Islam dan akhirat.

apa yang penting?
KERJASAMA

sendiri tanpa sokongan tak dapat melahirkan impak dan kesan

semoga Allah beri kita kekuatan utk thabat dalam jalan ini.

fardi muslim-baitulmuslim-mujtama'muslimah-daulah islamiyah-islahil watan-tahrirulwatan-ustaziatul alam(khilafah islam)

ini amal kita, sudah terbukti Rasulullah, sahabat berjaya melaksanakannya.
dan sahabat kita di Palestin, indonesia dan lain2 berusaha kuat melaksanakannya..
bagaimana pula kita?

FIDAK 2015
SYARIAH ISLAM TERTEGAK 2020

ayuh kita jayakan!!!!!

(wah~ i'm sound a bit SKEMA n damn Serious in this post... tang serius kite mmg x ble memain..dok g2..)